Lunar Ecstasy, V, 5.8 C3-

December 1999
For my last Christmas break before rejoining society as a productive member, I wanted to plan a big trip. First I set my sights on bagging peaks in South America, Peru maybe. Turns out Peru isn’t in season in December, so I thought about trudging up Aconcagua instead. Lack of a partner, no passion for the slog of the Normal route, and a woman thwarted those plans. So I reverted to the tradition of three of the past four years: a Zion wall. Last year I had soloed Moonlight Buttress, which was an amazing climb and a phenomenal experience. This year, after a bit of consternation, I settled on a harder line right next door, Lunar Ecstasy.

The risk inherent in climbing such mountains carries its own reward, deep and abiding, because it provides as profound a sense of self-knowledge as anything else on earth. A mountain is perilous, true; but it is also redemptive.
          --David Breshears

Day 0: Driving and Rope Fixing
Prelaunch was from San Francisco after a weekend of smoozing with my classmates and wine tasting with my girlfriend. After dropping her off at the airport late Sunday night I started the long haul from the Bay Area to Zion. I made it as far as Barstow the first night and bivied in a field somewhere just east of the city. Morning dawned early and I headed toward the city of sin (Vegas…I always get the creeps going through there) and off to Zion. A short stop in St. George for a couple stoppers to fill out my rack and I made it to the park just after noon.

First stop, the ranger station to get my climbing permit and some beta. The rangers were really cool and supplied all the necessary stuff to get me going, including copies of topos supplied by other climbers. As a side note, apparently the park system is going to start charging climbers $5 for climbing permits beginning in 2000. Now, I am a climber dirtbag as much as the next guy, but as long as the $5 is going toward supporting access and climber rescues I am more than happy to pay. The corollary, of course, is that they ought to try to charge RV campers fees for services that only they will use (e.g. have a higher rate for sites with those silly little emptying receptacles, etc.). The fee amounts to nothing less than a tax on climbing, and if the incidence of the tax matches the beneficiaries, than I’m happy. Anyway, the ranger thought this was an awfully forward looking view and encouraged me on my climb.

I gathered the rack and ropes, tossed them into the haul bag, and trudged over to the base of the climb, meeting a young climber named Matt along the way. He was off to solo Moonlight and we exchanged well wishes and scoped the route together. Anyway, I negotiated the river crossing an made my way to the base. Lunar shares the first two pitches with Moonlight, so I didn’t have any trouble finding the climb and getting started. My own beta from Moonlight recommended going up the 5.8 ramp instead of directly up the face, so off I went. The beginnings of the ramp were easy, but true to Zion form there was a dicey mandatory free section about half way up. I got gripped, pulled through it, and cruised to the belay. In retrospect, I’m not sure which I like better, the ramp or the direct start. Both are easy to a dicey section to an easy cruise to the belay. Anyway, I fixed my ropes, rapped down and headed off to Taco Bell for my last dinner before launch day.

The trouble is, if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more.
            -- Erica Jong

Day 1: Someone else’s epic
Launch day dawned early after a cold night at the campground. I heated up some coffee and oatmeal and headed off to the climb. As I geared up at the bottom I saw a couple of climbers that had fixed high on Moonlight the day before and Matt following me up the hill. Busy day! I got the haulbag packed and jugged up to my high point; a quick haul and rerack and I was ready to fire up the second pitch. Number two was easy since we were still on the Moonlight line -- it basically traverses up and right around an A1 flake to a blocky ledge. The climbing I dispatched nicely, but still hadn’t quite gotten my systems totally dialed. I left the bottom end of the lead line tied to the anchor and the pitch was just over half a rope long. DOH! I set up a mini anchor, rapped down, freed the line, and fired back up to finish the pitch. Mid way back, the haul line on my harness got snagged. Rap down. Free the line. Jug up. Finally the top, and I set up my anchors. Fortunately I didn’t have to haul this pitch, since the haul can be combined with the next pitch (but the leads can’t be run together because P3 is so awkward). Whew, the work of a soloist is never done…

Finally I got all set up to do the third pitch, which the beta said was kindof a nightmare. Yes, it was. It heads up a deep corner that is climbed by aiding up a thin crack way back in the corner, similar to the chimney grovel on Moonlight. I struggled up on some thin stuff with a couple free moves mixed in for flavor to a sketchy free move onto the ledge at the base of four. So far, day one isn’t the best climbing in the world. An awkward corner and haul line snagfest. Hmmm. Oh well, at least the haul on this pitch went smoothly and soon I was ready for the beginning of the real climbing. The long P4 turned out to be pretty easy, all told. It starts with some really easy free climbing, maybe 5.6, to an easy mantle, to a couple moves around a shrubbery (bring us a shrubbery!). The pitch continues up some pretty easy clean stuff that gets thinner, but goes no problem. The pitch finishes with the half moon traverse on mostly good bolts to pull up onto farewell ledge, a nice bivy / lunch spot.

Here I faced a decision…it was about 3:30 and I wanted to be finished climbing by 5 when it got dark. I could have probably fired most of the next pitch, but I decided to take it easy. The point of the wall was to reflect on a pretty wild year, to pray, and to make some decisions about careers and life plans. So I opted to set up my bivy, read a bit, and watch the Valley as the day came to a close. As I was doing this I heard those sounds that all climbers dread…the sounds of an epic in process around the arête from me:

First, a soft sound of indistinguishable origin.
Then, the unmistakable sound of something falling very fast…
Whoooosh.
"FUCK, Oh Fuck."
"What?"
Some mumbling. Short pause.
"Off Rappel."

Indistinct cursing all the way down the wall. I guess the guys from Arizona didn’t make it after all. At least the falling sound was an *inanimate* object. Anyway, I got the bivy set up, read a little, had an early dinner, and watched the Valley while I thought and prayed. I didn’t have any grand epiphanies, but it was a really cool time to get my head settled and to reflect. The night was cold and windy; I suffered a little extra for having brought my light sleeping bag and no pad (the wind felt like it was whipping up under the ledge expressly for my misery). In retrospect, I probably suffered more from being gripped about the hard climbing the next day than from the cold.

Identifying and overcoming natural fear is one of the pleasing struggles intrinsic to climbing.
        -- Alex Lowe

Day 2: Hard Climbing
The second day dawned early and cold. Since I hadn’t slept much I was up in a flash, hoping that moving would warm me up a little. I had somelunarpic1.jpg (11640 bytes) food and got everything cleaned up for the day. [Authors aside: poptarts, a new wall innovation, get a big thumbs up. I thought they wouldn’t stand up to the wall, but they came through with flying colors. Less grainy than bagels and more tasty than cold oatmeal.] The fifth pitch looked really thin, but I had the assurances of climbers that put together the NPS maps that "looks thinner than it is." To be honest, I don’t really remember much about this pitch except that yes, it did look thin, and yes, it was all there. I think, though, that maybe somewhere along this pitch I discovered the utility of the offset nuts that my girlfriend had leant me. Usually in trip reports I rant and rave about how great aliens are. I am not about to abandon my devotion to aliens (CCH not little green :- ), but the pieces that saved this climb for me were the offset DMM Wallnuts that I had. I only carried the #3, #4, and #5, but there were many, many times that they fit where nothing else would have. If I hadn’t had those pieces, this climb would have been infinitely harder. So the 5th pitch went by in a flash. By now I had my systems totally down, and I was really enjoying the climbing.

Pitch 6 was the beginning of the hard climbing…different maps called this pitch anything from C2+ to A4. This pitch is the classic example of why aid ratings are so fungible. The pitch started out with 90 feet of bomber yellow alien placements, one after another. So I started the leapfrogging game…over the 90 feet I got a couple big nuts and a couple red alien placements, but I had something like 20 foot runouts between placements. Because the Zion rock is so friable, I really doubt whether they would have held a long fall. But all the placements were totally bomber (reminiscent of the cam walk pitch on Zodiac, just smaller cams). So what should the pitch be rated? A1 because the placements are all good? A4 because I was looking at 80 foot fall potential? I’d go the C2+ that it got on rec.climbing, I guess. But I was gripped by the time I started getting some stuff I could leave. Anyway, after the initial section, it narrowed down to green aliens and medium sized nuts, which I cruised to the belay. Quick easy haul and I was ready for the hard stuff.

Pitch 7 is technically the crux, I think. I’d go C3 for this pitch, for the fall potential and the level of difficulty. I had been dreading this pitch for 24 hours and the time of reckoning was at hand. I racked up and took a real deep breath. Off I went. The pitch starts off thin, and I climbed gently, concentrating on making sure my systems were smooth. A few small nuts got me to a couple of decent rivets which led up and around the first of two detached blocks. I negotiated that section well and moved up to the second and larger of the two blocks, called the Amoeba. This is a really cool feature…it literally looks like someone has taken a piece of silly putty or clay the color of sandstone and pasted it to the wall. Only the silly putty happens to be about 10 feet long and 6 feet wide. The whole thing is loose, with a suitcase sized block sitting on top that you can move around with one hand. Anyway, a couple good placements below the block got me to it, and I was determined not to put any small nuts behind the Amoeba. Fortunately there is a rivet placed just to the side of the block. I top step funky chicken free moved and managed to clip the rivet. Whew. Shift over gently and peer at the crack above the block. Hmm, I think, thin but doable. How do I get there? I need one placement behind the top of the Amoeba, avoiding the minideathblock on top. I put in a medium sized nut and weight it a little to settle it as the Amoeba flexes a bit. It actually turns out pretty stable and I rock onto the nut, gently move up in my aiders, and place a, what else? small offset nut in the crack above. Bomber. I am feeling good but realizing that the pitch ain’t a-over yet. I get in a nice cam, maybe a red or yellow, backclean the offset (might need that later), and start moving up on small pieces. A couple placements up I come to a thin, grainy bulge. I get high in my aiders searching for something good without success. Finally I get a blind blue alien way up and behind the bulge. I weight it gently. Shift. Shit. Bouncie, bouncie. Hmm, guess it’s okay after all. I move up until the piece is at eye level, while it spits grains of dark, dirty sandstone at me. Just as I get to the point where I can take a good look at the piece (bad idea) it starts to slip and slide. So here I am, a few thin pieces and a good cam between me and this nasty loose block, and my little alien is sliding ever so slowly toward the base of the crack. Somewhere in the distance I can almost hear the Amoeba chuckling. SHIT. Oh SHIT. I whip out the offsets and fire the small one, the #3 into the crack above the piece. It fits. Well. In the time it takes to breath I say a little prayer of thanks and hop on it, not bothering to bounce it. The alien spits one final clump of sandstone at me and I backclean it. I sit on the offset for a minute getting my head back. The crack widens up a bit and I get some good stuff up to the mandatory free, which turns out to be really easy. I clip the anchors and let out a primal scream of joy. The Valley echoes an answer. The top of this pitch is when I really started to feel good, to get that feeling of accomplishment and peace and fulfillment that I so seek in my climbing. Yee-Haw.

After the emotional roller-coaster of the seventh pitch and feeling as good as I do, the 8th pitch seems like it must be trivial. And it is. A short section of 5.6 wandering gets me to a pretty easy C1 crack to a couple free moves to a mantle and I clip the bolts, on a great ledge. Here I will spend the night. But I kindof have a choice to make. There are two finishes, the original, which is grainy and meandering, and the "Jarrett Finish" which is wide and more direct; the former takes off from a ledge to the right of where I am, the latter to the left. Huh. I gander at the pitches and at the ledges and decide for now that Jarrett looks better (and not that wide!). A haul and a quick set up and I am ready to start settling in. What a great night! The moon is full and I am totally psyched. The wall has gone well, the crux is behind me, the summit is almost mine, and I am totally stoked on life. I treat myself to an extra pudding and a snickers bar for dessert and drift off to sleep cozy and totally, absolutely, ultimately content.

Wherever you go, go with all your heart..
            -- Confucius

Day 3: Topping out
lunarpic2.jpg (15529 bytes)I woke early, just as the sun was beginning to warm the valley. The night had been just as cold, but my being in my sheltered alcove and having the ground beneath me instead of the wind made it seem a lot warmer. My heart felt about three sizes large (Well...in Who-ville they say /That the Grinch's small heart /Grew three sizes that day!). I ate, cleaned up, and stood gazing across the canyon and the walls. In some way I felt like I was seeing them for the first time, the amazing colors and the grandeur and size of it all. Pause. Time to climb.

The last pitch was supposed to be wide and straight forward. It turned out not to be so wide or straightforward. The initial climbing was quite easy as the pitch went up and over a bulge and through a wide pocket. The pocket took a blue Camelot nicely, and I moved up and around on medium sized nuts and small cams. As the crack system headed left toward the summit it got thinner and thinner until it finally petered out altogether two rivets shy of the anchor. A couple thin offsets got me to one placement below the two rivets. One placement left on the wall. I fiddle with an offset for a while. Bouncie, bouncie. Pop. Repeat for a while, no good placements. What the heck I think, why not end it with a bang. I pull out the hooks, heretofore unused on the wall. I place the middle hook on the BD talon over the lip of this edge. I rock on cautiously. It seems to treat me well so I rock on. I climb gently up, and stupidly place the offset in the pocket anyway and continue to move up the hook ever so slowly. Pretty low I can reach up and clip the rivet…got it! I sink onto the rivet heavily and clamber up, only to find that the rivet is sticking about a third of the way out of the wall. DOH! Never trust fixed gear, I guess. I quickly clip the next rivet, which is bomber. When I look back at the edge the hook was on I see that it has eroded almost all of the lip, a 1/4 inch of sandstone in the time I was on it. Huh. Soon I clip the anchors. Donesky! What a great climb.

As always, the hauling, dragging, sorting, and packing of the pig takes a while, requiring another anchor and a couple trips up and down the static line. Soon enough it was time to head down, loaded for bear (I weighed the pig packed for the solo descent and it was between 105 and 110 pounds. Errr, that sucks Beavis). But it is all downhill and paved, even. I walked down to the stares of all sorts of tourons, did the mile and a half glory strut back to the car, and collapsed on the pig. What a great wall! All clean, good style, no falls, great fun.

Funny, the return to society was as hard for this wall as for any. I headed back to the hordes of busy Christmas shoppers just before the holiday. I really believe that doing a wall requires a certain shift in mindset to a different level of consciousness, where the things which mean a lot and are worthy of worrying about fall away, leaving a raw, edgy mind. The reentry process: losing that state of being, re-aquiring the layers, is sometimes hard. I felt, as I wandered about the mall looking for some last minute gifts, like I had received some insight into the meaning of life and of existence that the people around me just didn’t get. I felt like running up to people and grabbing them, as if to say, wake up! You’re only living a half life! There is so much more out there, so much to see and experience and live. Come on! Oh well, about the time I get those layers reinstalled is about the time I start planning another long climb. ;- )

Remember, life is not what happens to you but what you make of what happens to you. Everyone dies, but not everyone fully lives. Too many people are having "near-life" experiences.
-- Aldous Huxley

Ed Diffendal
January 20, 2000

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